My "To-Do" list

Today I made a "To do" list of all things I need to accomplish by next Thursday. When I was finished I wanted to cry. I sat and stared at it for about ten minutes trying to calculate how I was going to fit everything into the one hundred and sixty eight hours that I have left.

By the time I finished calculating I forgot to include the hours for sleep and I was almost out of hours.

Right now my pending graduation ceremony has a very bitter sweet taste. I feel that this chapter of my time here in Seattle is ending so quickly that I'm not going to have time to tie up the loose ends. I can't just leave the city I now call my home in such a whirlwind that there will be no time for good-byes.

You don't walk across the stage and then just take off.

At least I don't think I can do it that way. I need time.
I have to visit my favorite places and take in the atmosphere. I have to give lots of hugs and say too many thank you's.

I have plans to return but who knows if that will happen, or when. And when I come back it won't be the city that it is to me now. It will have a new face, I will have new reasons to be here. It will be different.

It makes me sad that finals make everyone so crazy that there's no time for even a coffee break.

I have too much to do and not enough time. I need time to say good-bye but I don't think you can write something like that into a "To-do" list.

After I figured that out, I threw out my list.

Because the really important things that I need to do in the next week can't be written down in bullet format.


It says: "I'm on my way to the future, she said. And I said, but you're just sitting there listening and she smiled and said, it's harder than you'd think with all the noise that everyone else is making."

Thanks Cleair for sharing a link :]

Comments

  1. danica blancaJune 3, 2009 at 10:21 PM

    "Because the really important things that I need to do in the next week can't be written down in bullet format."

    I love this :)

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