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Happy New Year! woo hoo! It's 2010...

Okay I know. I'm just a little late... almost exactly a month late actually. This post is way overdue. The reason for my absence is well... I'm not quite sure. I suppose I don't really have a legitimate excuse.

I could probably blame it on several things; coaching, puppy, job searching, grandma, babysitting, boy(s)... But I won't because as much as all of those things fill the hours of my days I have always found time to write in the past. However, lately I realized that since the new year began I haven't even bothered to think much about the things that I love to do (the things that bring ME joy)

I haven't been reading as many books, I haven't been obsessively writing down my random thoughts and ideas, I haven't been carrying my camera around to take photographs...

I just haven't been doing a lot lately and it's sort of been putting me in a weird funk. My lack of motivation is definitely at an all time low.

And again, I have no real reason or excuse for it. It just is what it is. I'm getting frighteningly comfortable with the way things are right now (and me being comfortable living in my parents home is a very scary thing).

For the past eight or nine months I've been doing the things to make other people's lives happy. I've been trying to give back and please those around me by lending an extra hand here and there, which lately means my hands are always being borrowed. Not to sound like a martyr but it has sort of made me forget about the things that truly make ME happy. Because at the end of the day I'm simply too exhausted to try to pick up a book, or jot a few things down, or even edit a few photos. At the end of the day it just feels good to sit on my butt and veg while watching some stupid reality tv show on MTV about a bunch of knuckleheads partying in Jersey (yes I got yanked onto THAT junk wagon).

So this post is to the new year and getting off my ass and doing something with myself. Here's to getting back into the job searching and doing the selfish things that make ME happy. Here's to resolutions and new relationships and becoming the writer that I know I'm supposed to be.

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