Remember that one time when you were 25 and you quit your job without a back up plan...

Oh, wait... that was me and that just happened.

Everyone has a breaking point.

Actually, let me rephrase that... everyone has a moment of complete clarity. Or at least in this particular case I did. So, I quit my job. And I have a few vague ideas of what I want to do and what I'm meant to do in this professional world. But, let's be honest... I put my career aspirations on hold for so long for a lot of different reasons (all very good reasons and I don't regret one of those decisions for a second). Now that I have time to really think about it, I'm not sure what it is that I want to do anymore.

I had to take a step back and ask myself a few questions before making this potentially horrible decision: Was it a terrible job? No, not completely. Are you good at what you do at this job? Yes, surprisingly very good. Were there things that could be better at this job? Too many to count. Did this job pay the bills? Yes, barely. Were you happy at this job? No, not completely. If you continued to work at this job was there room to grow personally/professionally? No, not at all. Are you passionate about this job? Not. At. All.

That about sums it up. I made the decision to leave and I feel.... fantastic. I guess there is this sort of feeling of potential that I have of myself that I know I'm not reaching and no offense to anyone in the food industry (I will forever give giant kudos to anyone and everyone who works in this industry) but I was never going to get anywhere close to what I want to do with my life as a cook for the next 10 years.

It's like when you're a kid and you're daydreaming about what it's going to be like when you grow up... everything is bigger and better and the grass is green. I'm still there. I know I can find something great and be someone that makes a huge impact. I don't know what the scale of that impact will be on the world as a whole but it will be huge in it's very own way. Most importantly though is that the grass in my lawn is always lush and green.

With that said. Here's to moving on without an exact plan and being completely confident and okay with that. I know things will work themselves out the way they are supposed to. Here's to not settling for less and striving for more than I might think I am capable of. I know that I will end up exactly where I need to be when I need to be there.

...and in the mean time if anyone knows of someone who is looking for a young self-motivated, incredibly hard working individual with their BA... You can give them my number ;-)

Now please take a moment to enjoy this incredibly cliche pop song by Katy Perry about female self empowerment and breaking out in this tough world of bullies who just want to tear us down! ...which now that I think about it is very irrelevant to this post but whatevs...I like it anyway.



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  1. UnknownAugust 28, 2013 at 11:19 AM

    This is awesome Alyss!
    I'm in a similar situation, I'm sure you will come across far better opportunities with a new mindset.
    Best of Luck!!

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